Oh shit, my first blog..so much to say but too damn tired to say it, but this is just a reflection of my life period..got way too much on my plate but keep eating more. Why? Because I feel that I never push myself to my limit. Yet on the other hand, my rope is getting shorter and shorter. Let's stop and discuss for a moment why am I up at 1.57 a.m.. It's all Na'im's fault. For those of you who know me well, you know that's my 22-month-old. Handsome lil boy but fiery as hell. I guess it's true what they say...when ya pregnant, the baby absorbs what you feel inside. well if that's true he should be on parole by the time he graduates from preschool. but that's another post for another day.
Anyhoo...because the lil whippersnapper has spent just about every night of his life in my bed he REFUSES to go to sleep unless he is touching me in some way. Whether it's physically holding on to my clothes, a tiny foot on my leg or an occasional punch in the eye (now you wanna talk about curse!), he has to know that I am nearby. There's only one exception to his rule and that's when his daddy is around..that'll be addressed sometime in the future.
So, mama lays down after giving his big brother spanks and sending him to bed and vows not to fall asleep because it's only 10.00 and I got to iron but what you think happens? Yup. You guessed it. But although I should be ironing, I gravitated to my computer. Oh well. Everything happens for a reason.
WHY BLOG NOW?
People have asked me FOREVER why I wouldn't do it and truthfully it never really interested me but here lately I've been wrestling with it and then my girl, Powergirl Trina, kept encouraging me and here I am today. And I just realised that I left one of the mats to my car out on the lawn. Damn, that was random. But that's me...the ultimate multi tasker. I have to be. I got three kids and tons of shit to do.
One of the reasons why Ive been reluctant to start this blog because I know that unintentionally or not I will offend someone. Whether it be a friend, a relative, a former lover, but you know what? WHO CARES. The purpose of this blog is express how I truly feel and if I have offended you it means that I am telling the truth. I'm not apologising for it. I will speak the TRUTH and all times and I cannot feel sorry for that.
As a professional writer I am so excited about where my fingers are gonna take me (us). You may be surprised. I will make you laugh, you will feel me cry. You'll hear me drop an eff bomb or two (yeah yeah some of you may not like it blah blah blah). You'll make judgements. Hell, you may even ask questions..but guess what you'll ultimately do..you learn who I am, what makes me tick and why I do what I do. Now, I hear Ajani inside stirring and his butt aint due up for another 5 hours. Oh that's the other thing. I rarely sleep because all three of them think they HAVE to be in my bed 8 nights a week. I wouldnt mind if I had a queen or bigger but I have a full bed. My daughter, who will be taller than me in 20 mins, has a wingspan of 10 feet, Ajani, 5, literally does not care where the rest of his limbs fall as long as his head is on a pillow (wait till y'all see the pics) and Ny is drinking juice with one foot up against the headboard.
So here's what's gonna happen..Im gonna iron and then go to sleep in their room and one by one they will smell mama and come a running. It's like they tag team. But I'm happy. It is a privilege to be a parent..no matter how much alcohol I consume in a 24-hour period!
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